Monday, 17 December 2012
my other home....
...is a studio space at Swindon College.
I had an assignment deadline today. Studio Practice 3. This counts. For those of you who don't know I dropped out of college the first time around for reasons I don't want to revisit. I was a fairly useless young adult. I started off OK and then when it came to A levels and leaving home I really didn't make very good decisions.
I've written here before about my recurring college nightmare of going back and failing / leaving again. I've stopped having those dreams thank goodness. My final year is proving to be a challenge. I'm working part-time, family life seems to be getting busier, the Worker seems to be having to work ever harder. It's not an easy run. Sometimes I wish I'd just stuck at my course the first time around but then I wouldn't be having this opportunity now. How many other ladies of a fortyish age get to spend at least part of their week contemplating their artistic practice?
I do feel lucky to be able to do this and I hope my Dad would have been impressed that I finally got to go back and (with the wind behind me) get a degree.
Already people are asking what I'm going to do with it? One of our modules at college is 'professional practice'. The answer is, I don't know. I think if I were younger without a family, I'd be heading off like every other aspiring artist to London or Paris or New York. I'm not. In fact, I almost don't want to know what I'm going to do. What I think I will have gained from these three years is the confidence to do things I would never have done before. So far I've completed a residency and exhibited in brand new venue. I know that if I want to pursue a career as a practising artist, it's really up to me.
I think it will be interesting as an older artist, and one based outside London. I do feel that I can do anything. I don't feel constrained by trends or the 'nowness' of things as much as if I would, perhaps, if I was younger.
So, today I finished the first of the assignments of my final year.
Tonight - the annual Zumba Christmas party...a little different but just as enjoyable!